whisper that I live with....

What do you think about life? And by the way have any aim in your life? If you don’t have, it’s better. It’s been hard in my life working for my aim, which is of no certainty. But still my soul, my mind, my heart, my feelings… whispers me ‘its certain’ and I walk along this ordeal of my life listening to this whisper every time fall down on my way and learning more from my mistakes. You know having aim is something like I get stuck on something (principles) and won’t be able to pull myself out of it. If I even try to pull my myself out I am most of the time mentally as well as well internally eaten by a sense of guilt and I feel like a loser and I have no thought of winning but I will never in my life runaway like a coward too. Most of my friends have discarded me for having idiosyncratic ideas or like having a kind of eccentric behavior except for few. Of course it hurts me deep inside sometimes and burns me inside and I convince myself with my whisper for being honest to myself and to my principles. I always wanted something natural no artificial because artificial things makes me feel gaudy. Some of my colleagues say that my writing are out tradition or something like an iconoclast, but it doesn’t matter me a lot because I am more colloquial in writing than try be more artificial and look gaudy. As I write this piece of writing about my own life I feel stronger with the sound of whisper in my mind, heart and soul than the person who criticizes me with no knowledge of what and how I am really writing.

Milan Gurung (Freeman)